Most of the kids in the program come from low-income families and have difficult lives. Many parents are in prison, some live with other family members, some cannot afford even simple school supplies, some just get into trouble a lot, some just need attention, most need academic help, etc. I've written on here before about my personal struggles with the child I had for 2 years and whether or not I wanted to remain a mentor. I still struggled with this decision to the point where I asked our director if I could lend my gifts to another area of the program, or if I could be placed with a different child. I gave myself a hard time for feeling like I had given up on the child I spent 2 years with, but she is still in the program and paired with a mentor who I believe is much more suited to her.
So what is going on with me?, you might ask. After some confusion with being initially placed with a very hyper 6 year old boy, I was eventually assigned to a fifth grade girl. We have only met for 2 weeks so far, but I can already tell that she is the perfect fit for me. She is sweet, polite, talks openly with me, and she works hard at everything we have done. She has a difficult family life and really needs some encouragement and positive reinforcement. She is behind in school and I believe has a learning disability, but I am there to help and encourage her. For the first time, I have left the school feeling like I actually made a difference in a child's life, something that I usually don't feel at all. This ministry once left me feeling unfulfilled, and now I feel fulfilled to some extent. That being said, I understand that this ministry is not about me at all, but for the wellness of the child. This was what I was agonizing about before- the hour I spent with my previous child felt like we were not making any progress and we were wasting both of our times. We had a friendship at least, and that was something I could offer her, but I felt that my gifts were not matched with what she needed. Now, I feel like my gifts are being put to good use with this girl I am matched with.
Last week when I went to her classroom to get her, she was down the hall waiting to head back to her classroom after recess. After only having met me a week ago, she starting jumping up and down and waving at me, excited to get down the hall to see me. Kids Hope might be the most challenging thing I do, but I hope that by the end of this year, it will be one of the most wonderful and exciting things I do as well.
Want to learn more about Kids Hope and possibly start a program at your church? Visit their website: http://www.kidshopeusa.org/




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